You know what’s hard? Quitting. And what’s an order of magnitude harder? Quitting on your own thing.

I can’t remember how old I was when I decided I was going to start a business one day. My gut says university, and I know that by the time I graduated I was sure that I wanted to do it. But I didn’t feel ready, so I took a job.

I don’t think I still felt ready when we started Travelabulous in 2013. I do recall a pivotal moment – though I can’t remember exactly when it occurred, it was definitely after we’d started working on the startup. At a coffee shop on 4th Avenue, I said to Kirk: “I know some guys who have built and sold a company… I’ve gone through the same programs as them, I’ve done a lot of the same precursor things. I’m not that different from them”.

It took me a long time to believe that.

So, naturally, I have had a hard time giving up on that dream, even when the objective signs were pointing to the project failing.

In the course of my sabbatical thus far, I’ve had a chance to chat to a few other founders. I’ve explored what their companies are doing. Some have worthy missions, strong teams, a backdraft of market conditions and funding.

They just aren’t mine.

That’s why when opportunity knocked about a week ago (in form of a LinkedIn post, of all things), I knew I had to answer the door. Even if there’s nothing behind said door, I felt a strong sense of “owing” it – to myself, and everyone who’s supported me – to pursue it.

So for the past week, Kirk and I have been working on a pitch for a new Postcard. One that could actually be a real business from Day 1 – that is, sustain itself. We aren’t quite ready, and it could turn out to be a wild goose chase – I should really be sticking with the door metaphor here – but if you’re curious, I can share the idea, just drop me a note.

In any case, the work is essentially done, and we’ll find out soon if there’s any interest in the pitch. So, it’s back to scheduled programming for the moment – but do wish me luck.